Being Bipolar And Lacking Confidence

My Self Confidence really was affected when I was diagnosed with Bipolar I.  I was placed on many medications that caused me to gain weight and not function very well. I  was just plain miserable. When I reached 256 lbs. I remember talking to my therapist and telling her how embarrassed I felt about my weight. I hated going out to the store and worried that people from my past would see me. I used to model and was even featured on the County County Connection buses, so even taking a bus was hard for me. I was an emotional mess inside. Fortunately, I had a great case manager who really worked with me. She was the one that helped me find my current Psychiatrist. I went on several meds, until I found the right meds that worked.  And then I joined a gym. I have been a member of 24 Hour Fitness in Concord for quite sometime. I love working out and have gotten to the point where I am happy with my body again. I am still working on losing more weight, but I am not over 200 lbs. anymore. I am at a healthy weight for me and my confidence is improving. I remember going on interviews for jobs and feeling "ugly"  and I am sure my lack of confidence was evident in how I did in those interviews. I never got the jobs.  I am kinda glad I did not get a job, because I was not ready mentally or physically for a job. I know that in order to really do well I MUST get an education. Enrolling at Heald Business College was the best thing that I could of done for myself. I absolutely love the program that I am doing and know that in time I will graduate from Heald. I just need to stay focused, determined and never give up on myself.  I just know that God has really helped me a lot. God never left me and stayed beside me through the rough times. I am indeed blessed.